The Cliff

I feel as if I’m at the edge of a cliff looking down, being held by a thread, there is a tempest and the sea is agitated and angry below. There is a chance I can fly, but can I?

The sensation is cliché-as, the fear of a possibility, the butterflies, the delicious anxious sensation that wants something to happen now. Something to happen soon. While the other part of me wants time to slow down, I want to enjoy the falling, the flying.

Not-knowing is as important as would having certainty be.

I admire your courage…

Erotica in Public

The beauty of the invention of the e-book is being able to read whatever you want, whenever and wherever you are. Reading erotica on the busy bus to work is particularly interesting.

I am weird, what I like writing, often, isn’t what I like reading. I have written an Erotica and I am now searching high and low for the successful books I can compare it to. Apparently, that is one of the points that can help to sell a book to an Agent.

This is a book I believe in, the first I see as ready to be sold. Because of it, I’m ending up reading about hot, sometimes disturbing, sometimes arousing, scenes on the bus, before nine in the morning.

It is a strange sensation, feeling your cheeks flushing, trying to stop reading, wondering if you are going to miss your stop, getting wet but hating that you are, attempting to decide, if you were the character, where you would draw a line…

The Consequences of Writing Erotica

Self-pleasure.

I have written an Erotica, not an erotic romance, not Mills & Boon, it’s an Erotica verging on Porn.

It is not only a stretch of the well-behaved woman, it breaks through the limits.

I’m going over the brilliant work that my freelance editor did for me, proofreading and editing my writing.

I cannot believe it still arouses me.

It happened before when I wrote an erotic short piece and then, I didn’t want to see it again, kind of ashamed of it, with a weird reluctance to see what I had created.

Maybe I’m more mature now, more comfortable with my fantasies and sexuality, more aware of my pleasure.

Not only I’m happy to see it again, it affects me as badly as when I first imagined it.

My poor toys are getting a lot of work!

Naivité

I am a suffering soul. I work in a place full of gorgeous men. Either, for some reason, my company attracts the gorgeous ones, or I simply find most men gorgeous.

What kills me daily, though, is that they have no idea of my filthy mind, or of how gorgeous they are, or how impossibly tantalising they look to me. They are ridiculously naive and do not care one bit to kill me softly with their smiles and winks! They wink!

Firstly they are impossible targets to me because we work together and love and workplace do not mix. By principle, a bad idea. But more importantly, they are all committed. Most of them married with impossibly perfect families, 2.4 children, a house, a dog, successful, etc.

My fantasies don’t really register that part though, the fantasies just see confident, interesting, intelligent, fit, right age, beautiful looks, charming, good-people, smiley… and winks!

Most of them all are above me, hierarchically, I wouldn’t mind if instead they were on top of me ha!

They pass in front of me, when they come back the company’s personal training session, sweaty, in shorts, sleeveless shirts, oozing testosterone, blushing cheeks. I hold my table hard not to swoon and fall from my chair.

One day, one of them decides to crawl under my desk to reach the power plugs beyond. Seriously? I look below me to see his ass wriggling, his shirt having gone up a bit, revealing a bit of his crack. I feel like touching the skin, oh so lightly… or maybe smacking his ass? Not sure. I held very, very quiet, super wide eyed, holding one hand to the other not to allow the naughty appendages go where they shouldn’t. I’ve kept my job by a thread, that day. So close…

The other day another one announced he had forgotten to take his towel to the company’s shower and had to dry himself with paper towels. I had an instant reply ‘next time, call me, I’ll dry you with my tongue!’ fortunately I kept the phrase on the inside and just a funny smile on the outside.

The third one is a cheeky salesman sort, every time I look at him, I see him spent after sex, after we had so much of it that he is naked over my bed like roadkill. Instead I look and say politely ‘good morning’.

I hope my own man appears soon or this job is doomed!

Orble Archive – Project Completed

I set myself to re-make my Blog after the Orble community disappeared out of thin air. I had backups and print screens, with which I was able to recreate it here.

Here are some of the favourite posts:

One New Lover and the Big Feet Myth Busted 24-Jul-10 133 Votes

In about 4.5 years I managed to published 49 Posts, and was voted on over 2,197 times.

  • Total 49 Posts
  • From 13 Jan 2009
  • To 10 Nov 2014
  • Total Orble Votes: 2,197 Votes = Orble Likes